Confused

Life is keeping confusing me , whenever trying to understand it i am still finding myself in a dealock . I tried to live based on strong principles , sometimes idealistic, but.....i am always surprised by a strong opposition . Most the time these voices are telling me to get out of the ivory tower and live like everybody should do. Otherwise i will be accused of swimming against the tide. Once a time I have tried to learn the other way round, to be realistic and see things as they are not they way they should be" as I used to be accused". This time again i am being accused to be cruel, without principle, weak and so on so forth. Between these two binari oppositions I am feeling lost . My old friends became my new foes, and i am like a distorted , disoriented man. Concepts became illusions.....what is the meaning of life can somebody tell me